Right now I have been doing a lot of searching within myself. Like.. where do I belong here in this existence? And it has been a tug war with the voices in my head. Just so that I have said it, the voices, which I say is in my head, are actually on the outside of me. And they come and go, and as I have been told by them, have a place to go to when they are not with me. Therefore I see them as Beings. Because they belong to a different realm. But as it has been for me, crazy at times by the way, I have not been able to see myself as nothing but ill. Because everything got so weird that I did not even Understand what anything was about anymore. But.. I think.. after my Understanding of everything. That there has been so many different Beings, visiting me, with different agendas, that everything just clashed with me. Deamons fooling me alot. Light Beings with their own agendas, that clashed with other Light beings agendas. All of them trying to do good, but it was a tug war in which Beings I was going to be with or follow and such. Other beings wanted me to choose a specific Religion and so on. All of them wanting good for me. But there were no place were I truly belonged. And there were allways all of these rules I had to adjust to, if choosing a particulair Religion, so I was unable to. But many Beings, adviced me to pick a Religion, I got familiar with quite a few. But no Religion was the right choice for me. I just did not fit in. I just want to say something, I might be ill, I might have encountered Spiritual Beings who wanted to help me, but what I have taken in of information about things have played a huge role in how my hearing/schitzophrenia has evolved. So I might be just ill.. allthough I do not believe it.
Anyway, right now, I am working with not only Healing myself. But using energy and the physical properties of plants to Heal myself. To clarify, a plant has both their energy to work with, and their physical properties to work with. And mixing different things in teas and other beverages, thinking about both the energetic properties and the physical effetct the plants have on their body, cand be tremendously Healing. And even highten states of being in ourselves. I think that this is so fascinating and even magical. That a mix of plants, can bring so much goodness for someone. I am dreaming about an office now, where I am a conversational Healer of sorts. Where I offer my teas for a calming and Healing effect. And then we just talk. I am actually pretty great talking to. And I think I could have healped people.
And by the way.. if You have experienced somewhat the same as me.. do not be afraid to contact me. Because do You know what? You are not alone in this :) And otherwise, dont let Your voices bring You down. I am sure that You are a wonderful person. It is not our faults that we have this diagnose, and that we are being dragged into things that we do not Understand. But do You know what? If You have been through the trauma of what Schitzophrenia can be. You are welcomed to contact me. I am more than sure that I will Understand what it is about. Not that we arent ill at all.. but I know what I myself has been through, within my Shitzophrenic bubble.. and it was very hard at some points. Because some voices were good to me, trying to help me, and some were actually really bad to me. And do You know what? We should definetelly have someone in our lives, that can Understand what it is about. So dear Friend, just contact me if You want to. And just so You know, inviting You to contact me right now has nothing to do with me wanting to offer You tea and talking like that, allthough I could :) But.. its just about being there for You, if You are going through the same as me. We should stand together, us, with this diagnose. Because healthcare are definetelly able to help us with medications, follow ups to make sure we are doing as best as we can, but the ones who can truly Understand what is going on, is us.. and I am inviting us all, who are going through this kind of thing, to be there for each other. Will You join me? :)
Thank You for reading this..
With Unconditional Love and Gratitude
Elisabeth Hjerte
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