If there is something this world need more than anything right now, its Love. We all walk around, feeling seperate from each other, when we all need to realize, that we are in fact all connected. There are more than one way, that we are all connected. But we seem oblivious to them. Number one, we are all the same specie. Which we all should be very much aware of. Because we are all walking around in each our own body, that is of the same specie. We look the same, all though so very different from each other. But this is the most noticeable of all of the ways we are connected. And the one that should be the most known, to everyone. And yet, we seem oblivious to it. Why is that actually? Why are we so oblivious to our own connection to each other? Our own connection with Earth? Humanitys dependant connection with Earth? When we are all here, together.

I have to write this. Because it was suddenly clear to me.. by the Help of a voice I have been hearing. From the Light. But it is about what psychopaths are going through. And I need to write it, because it might Help psychopaths. And I think, that it is worth trying and focusing on, because if it can Help, a conduct disordered Child(which might turn into a psychopath as an adult), live better, I think that that is worth bringing up. 

I have to say something. We are all connected to our Earth. We might not be aware of it, but just having our bodies here, connects us to Her. Because She births all of the Life here on this wonderful Planet. She births Nature, all of the time. Ever growing, ever Life. Plant Life dies as well, and when it does, it all goes back to Her, and then resurfacing. Its an ever cycle, that goes around and around. And its the same with our bodies. We have it, while we are alive here. And when our body dies, the Life of it, goes back to the Mother, and our Spirit, our Soul, goes elsewhere. But the Life of Her, beats within us, and therefore, just by having our body here, on Earth, it connects us to Her. We are not aware of this, because we are all up in our Heads, living our lives, trying to make a LIfe for ourselves and all of that. But I think we should all try to connect more with Her. Because when we feel connected to Her, we are more at Peace. Im not saying we should all quit Living our Lives and go live in the forest, that would not be the best for our Society, or for ourselves maybe, but to go into wilderness sometimes, just to connect, that I highly recommend. And as I have said before, by being Grateful, to Her Life, by being Grateful for our Lives, from Her, we will find more Peace, Awe and Love, for not only Her, but for ourselves. Can You think? We are alive! We are here! On this Wonderful, huge Beautiful Planet. Not only together, as a Specie here, but together with Her. Experiencing Her. Having Her as our Home. Our Home Planet. I am so tremendously Grateful to be here. To be here, with all of You, to be here with Her. To get to experience this Beautiful Planet, together with the rest of Humanity. Because that we are. Humanity. And we have still much to learn. Much to figure out. But we are well on our way. And more and more people, are connecting to our Earth. We all might connect in different ways. But more and more people are connecting. And that is Beautiful to me.

Have You ever been grateful for something? Is not that just the nicest thing? To feel grateful? I think its maybe one of the most Loving and Peaceful things to be feeling. I have been so tremendously Grateful for things in my Life. I have a roof over my head, I have my family, my friends. Surely there are ups and downs, like with my Demons. But I just want to say something about that. I also have had the Light beings. And all though things got so crazy at some point, some where Help to me, while others were not. But what I wanted to say, was, that I have learned so much from all of this. And I will be writing about something in the next post. That might trigger people, Im not sure. But I think it can be of great learning, for others. Because it was to myself. Learning I mean. And if we can all learn from something, we definetelly should. Im not saying I have answers here. But if I can open people up for Understanding. I will surely try.

I need to get something out of my system. Its a bit of a rant. So I am sorry about that, for those that are sensitive to that kind of thing. But the Demons in me right now, are really bad. They are messing with my energy. Emptying my emotions. Basically feeding of my energy and emotions. Triggering me, making me so angry at times. I argue with them alot. And it is a very difficult situation to be in. They have this influence on me which is very bad for me. But I have decided to learn from this.. I will find Peace in fact. Im not sure exactley how yet. Other than trying to feel Peaceful in any given situation with them. That might be harder sometimes, than others. Because they are able to send me energy. And for the most, this is bad energy. It makes me feel stuffed in my chest, stressed and agitated. Which can also make me angry. But I manage. But as I said, I will be connecting with Peace. I will find the Peace within me that I need to get through this. Its like a never ending drama that just never wants to stop. I dont even Understand what it is about them. They have been taking my emotions, to themselves. Leaving me with nothing. So in one way, I am empty. Without emotions. Not feeling like myself. Only existing. Not feeling my way through Life. 

Right now I have been doing a lot of searching within myself. Like.. where do I belong here in this existence? And it has been a tug war with the voices in my head. Just so that I have said it, the voices, which I say is in my head, are actually on the outside of me. And they come and go, and as I have been told by them, have a place to go to when they are not with me. Therefore I see them as Beings. Because they belong to a different realm. But as it has been for me, crazy at times by the way, I have not been able to see myself as nothing but ill. Because everything got so weird that I did not even Understand what anything was about anymore. But.. I think.. after my Understanding of everything. That there has been so many different Beings, visiting me, with different agendas, that everything just clashed with me. Deamons fooling me alot. Light Beings with their own agendas, that clashed with other Light beings agendas. All of them trying to do good, but it was a tug war in which Beings I was going to be with or follow and such. Other beings wanted me to choose a specific Religion and so on. All of them wanting good for me. But there were no place were I truly belonged. And there were allways all of these rules I had to adjust to, if choosing a particulair Religion, so I was unable to. But many Beings, adviced me to pick a Religion, I got familiar with quite a few. But no Religion was the right choice for me. I just did not fit in. I just want to say something, I might be ill, I might have encountered Spiritual Beings who wanted to help me, but what I have taken in of information about things have played a huge role in how my hearing/schitzophrenia has evolved. So I might be just ill.. allthough I do not believe it. 

Its been really hard lately.. I dont even know where to begin.. but I can start by telling You about what I have. Which is Schizophrenia. While also being Spiritual. I have been experiencing voices, telling me all sorts of things, about what might happen, by writing here. Making me fearful of it. And other voices, that tell me, how good it is that I am bringing it all up. I have experienced these voices as Spiritual. But right now, I am unsure of what is actually going on. And very aware of, me actually maybe just being ill.. but do You know what? I still believe in what I have written. And I regret deleting all of it. But I will try to rewrite some of it. Just so that it is available to people to read later on. But mainly I will move forward. On this blog. Writing, about stuff as I find stuff to write about. But it will still be written from the place of, Unconditional Love, Understanding, Compassion, Kindness and Respect. All of it. Bringing up subjects that I find fitting, for the enabeling of Healing within Beings. Anything that Heals and Helps. Is also what I am all about. What Helps Healing I mean. And what can help Heal. And what Helps people, in a way that promotes Growth within, Growth in Understanding, Compassion, Kindess, Respect for others, and for last, what hopefully triggers Unconditional Love for others, as well as for themselves. This I believe in. And this is whats up right now.. I have to Heal myself for some time. That is why I wrote on the front page that I will not be writing for some time. But.. I will still be writing. But it might not be so often anymore. But I will be sharing what I will be going through of my own Healing. And sharing my Journey in it. Because I have been through a lot. And I need to Heal myself. While still in it of sorts. So that will be something. I will actually have to find the strength within me. To Live in and with this. As best as I can. Key word is finding Peace with it. But I will take the steps. In Healing myself. I will use both psychology and Spiritual Healing teqniques, to reach my goal of finding Peace. If I can manage to do this, I might find a way for others like me, to find their Peace. And if I can manage to do that, I will be so Honoured, to have managed to be able to do that. And so Honoured to continue to Help people. With this. When I deleted all of my blog posts here. It felt like I lost a part of myself. I lost my reason for being here. Im not saying Im some starseed with a Soul purpose. But I had truly found my Life purpose. To Help. To Help Heal. To Help people awaken to not only their Kindest most Understanding selves(not saying people arent Kind enough here, but just saying that we have an ability to be our Kindest selves, but sometimes, we arent able to, and we need to reconnect with it.), but to their own Love for our existence. That might feel grand to some. Huge even. But to some, it might be this silent appreciation for their own Life. Equally big, equally nourishing for our Selves, our Souls and our fellow beings. The latter might seem weird to some, but I will explain. When we are at Peace, and in a Good feeling about something, our energy, can trigger others. And do You know what? If someone is triggered negatively by You, they are simply not ready for You, but do You know what? If someone is triggered positively by You, You have managed to impact their Life, in a good way, and brought them something good. Amazing, isnt it? :) That just by being our most Peaceful Selves, we can bring Peace into another persons Life. Beautiful it is.